2003-04-12 - 4:12 p.m.

I just got home like ten miutes ago and I have already threw up twice. I'm trying to hold the third on down but I don't know how well I will. I just want to throw up for the rest of the night now I don't want to go anywhere or do anything but lay here and cry.

I hate crying. I hate that you have a date. I hate that it's not me. I hate that I can't handle the fact that you have a date. I don't ever want to here that again. Sorry Mike my stomache and my heart just can't handle it.

Be a man. don't cry ELise. be a man.

sigh. I'm so sick of this. the way I feel. I hope that tomarrow at the park that your there. That you show up.

I hope I have a good time tonight.

I wish you'd show up just to say hello.

Even if it would make me cry.

I know I said it but I really hope you don't have a good time on your.

I want you to be happy, but I don't want another girl to be the cause of it.

I wish this was easy. I wish the whole world would just go away. I can wish all I want right? bah. my new mantra....

it will all work out in the end, it will all work out in the end, it will all work out in the end.

I have to vomit again

excuse me.

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