2003-04-11 - 6:16 p.m.

I hate that I want to call you. I hate that this is all I can think about. I hate that I want to believe in this friendship. I hate that I want to trust you. I hate that this put me in a good mood. I hate it, I hate it, I hate it!

I have a date but I don't think I have anything in common with this guy. I think he's a nice sweet guy, but I don't think that there is anything there. We have nothing to talk about. I can make conversation with a deaf blind duck, and I can't have a conversation with scott. That's horrible.

Count down to D-day

2 days.

God I wish that i didn't want to ditch Scott. grrrr. I guess I'll see him on saturday. maybe. I don't know. I just don't think that I'm the kind of girl he thinks i am. I don't know what to do.

but oddly enough this has nothing to do with you. I thought it did but no I just am really not attracted to his brain. God why does he have to be a red-neck. grrrrr

I think I'll go dye my hair now. or push my head under water and inhale!

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